the wait

I don’t know what I’m waiting for
I’m not sure if I’m prepared
But I have my glasses by the bedside
And some money to pay the fare

I don’t know what I’m waiting for
I’m not sure if I am ready
But I have an empty bladder and a clear mind
And made sure I am not hungry

I don’t know what I am waiting for
I’m not sure if I’m all set
But I have my skills to take with me
And my mentality in check

I don’t know what I’m waiting for
I’m not sure if I’m equipped
But I have my past and this moment
And my future plans ready to be lit

I don’t know what I’m waiting for
I’m not sure if I’m willing to change
But I have hope love and faith
To keep me company throughout the wait

A Choice

I can always pretend
That everything’s just fine
But I would be

lying

I can always count
The blessings that I’ve had
But I would be

stalling

I can always not compare
Your life to my life
But to myself I would be

deluding

I can always be content
With sleeping, working and eating
But I would merely be

existing

so I choose not to
do all these
but instead be

accepting

that I am human
I am weak
I have flaws

I have feelings

But I am human
I am strong
I have dreams

I am free willing

I can always choose
my attitude on things
as long as it allows me to be

living

Something Earned

one can never really tell
if you or someone
is really
a friend
until a standard is met

one can always laugh together
and have a lot of things in common
one can always argue with each other
or agree in the long run

but not until
one earns trust
one puts up with another’s shortcomings
then one gains a place in one’s heart

and when the time will come
when the first person one calls
in the event of success or misfortune
is you

then you will truly be called
a friend